Damn it, Man

My wife went to buy some make-up this weekend. The first trip didn't result in a look that she nor I liked, so we went to the spot together the next day. This time the make-up artist got it right. And my wife looked like a million bucks. Now me being a man, I want to fuck all the time...regardless of how she looks(just about regardless of how she looks), but with this new make-up she's HOT. I can't stop complementing her on how good she looks. She's liking the new look herself.
She picks out a sexy little dress to wear to work, and looks better today than yesterday. I tell her before I leave the house how good she looks. I send emails telling her how much I'd been thinking about her, and how much I loved her with this make-up on. She let me know she liked it, and I could tell she was more confident.
I continue to compliment her...because I truly am in aw. Telling her how I can't wait to see her after work, how I want to get under her dress. She's seemingly going along with my advances, but please be advised that any conversation regarding anything sexual while at work is simply talk to her. NOTHING ever sticks. No matter how many suggestions I make, I'm rarely successful in putting her in the 'mood'. To the point where it's almost not worth the effort...
Anyway, back to today. I'm so smitten, I send flowers to her job. A nice little bouquet of something..she gets them and says how sweet I am and how much she loves and appreciates me. Those things are good, but I'm looking to get some pussy! So, I send the flowers. I cook dinner, do a load of laundry, put up some laundry, take her nail polish off. Not because I expect something, but because those are things I do because they need to be done. Thing is earlier today on the elevator a co-worker is complaining to me about how she's got to go home and do this and that. To which I say, oh...I do x,y,z. She's like can I clone you. My husband doesn't do anything around the house. I know this to be true of most men, cause hey I'm a man. But again, I do thing because they are necessary and I would never want the entire burden of maintaining a home to fall on the shoulders of my wife.
I digress...
The point is that throughout the day I thought I was laying plans to get some pussy. She's talking about putting the dress back on after her shower, so I can get under it. She's talking about 'you must really want some' referring to the flowers. By 7, I know there's no sex in the plans for tonight...like too many other nights. And I can't understand. And I try. I've gotten a book, I look online for reasons and remedies, I try talking to her about what I need. Nothing clicks. She doesn't understand. Doesn't understand the rejection. Doesn't understand the longing. Doesn't understand the desire. Doesn't understand the need. Doesn't understand the want. Doesn't understand that sex is something a 27 year old man needs. And I understand that she's tired. I understand that the meds may be the cause. I understand that she doesn't want to as much. I understand that she's critical of herself regarding this(or so she says). I understand that she wishes her desire was greater.
And all this damn understanding leaves me pissed, cause I feel like I should be able to get some fucking pussy when I want!
And I'm writing just to get this shit out, so I don't fucking wake her up and go off. So I don't go to sleep mad.

So, in case you've missed it. I've got a hot wife, hows even hotter with this new make-up and confidence that goes along with it. But she doesn't want to sleep with me. How can a man not begin to think 'it's got to be me'. Maybe I'm not pleasing her? Makes sense..I wouldn't want to do something all the time I don't enjoy, but she swears this isn't it. THEN WHAT THE FUCK IS THE PROBLEM! Doesn't the bible say something about your wife and sex? Why don't we follow that fucking rule!!!! Why do I have to suffer, because I'm a man and should just have to deal with it. Why shouldn't I be able to fulfill my sexual needs...with or without my wife, if she's not willing or is unable. What the fuck do I do? In my relationship sex is expendable...not treated as a necessity. Not treated as a vital part of the relationship.

DAMN IT, MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!