She's back

Wifey made it home safe and sound this afternoon. And I'm extremely happy to have her back. I missed her laugh, smile, just her company. She seemed to have had a good time in Louisville, and brought home a wealth of information. Humana really has an investment in their employee's. It's wonderful to see, would be even better to participate in...seems as if there isn't room for anything at the agency.
Anyway, I got a Ali t-shirt from the Ali museum. It's nice...
Joy being back has some other significance. The nice before she left, nothing happened. No warm embrace, no snuggling, no good nice kiss, no sex. Now, my assumption is that when your partner leaves, you make love to them. It is also my assumption that upon your return you make love to them again. Because not only are you happy to see them, but you want to express your love for them...in more than words. You want to connect. These ideas have been communicated to wifey. She's forgotten or she just doesn't give a fuck. She promised to read a book on relationships that I've read, that I thought helped me understand her possible perspective. She took it out of town with her...didn't open it. Told me she took it, but didn't read it. If that's not giving a fuck, I don't know what is. Tell me to my face that you took a book that I've asked you to read...that you've promised to read...and didn't even bother to read any of it! WOW...
I often feel like this shouldn't be a complaint. That me not getting my sexual needs addressed shouldn't be a problem. I should just deal with it and be happy. I should accept not getting what I want because it's sex and its marriage and it's your wife and you've made a commitment to her and you're the man and what you have to say means shit and your needs are minimized by the fact that you are a man.
I tell her that she has all the fucking power. She has what I want, and is in total control. She's the sole distributor of her goods. They cannot be obtained without her permission. Not only her permission, but she has to want to give it to you. It's nothing that you can do to persuade her to give you some. She don't want to...she don't got to!
This is bullshit. I feel fucking helpless...
Everything else is GOLDEN though!!! She's the best thing that has ever happened to me in every other way...that's why I say that you can't expect a person to be EVERYTHING that you want/need them to be. And if you love that person then you should allow them to pursue outside parties to help in any area that you need help meeting wants/needs.

I just want to make love to my wife!