Tomorrow means what

Today, our lame ass administration began the task of reducing the budget(i.e. laying people off). We received an email this morning, suggesting that today would be the beginning of the layoffs. They didn't tell us who, just that bad news was coming....for someone. Cuts are going to go well into December. So, until the beginning of the year I'll be more uncomfortable at work than I have been. I have no idea if I'll be laid off. No clue. So everyday I'm expected to get up, go into work and act like the place isn't crumbling around me.
How do you work with knowing that you might not have a job tomorrow? That's a question I can't answer. What I can do. What I will do, is look for another job. Something that could potentially sustain me until I'm in the position to open up the sneaker boutique. Something that I won't miss when we move....
This financial crisis is exposing the inadequate leadership of soo many companies, states, cities, counties. The reality is that many of the people we have entrusted our leadership in have failed us. Part of this is our fault. Our fault for not asking more questions and demanding more answers. Not demanding accountability. And because we didn't require that someone be accountable, now we all are.
Here in Ohio. Seems like our leaders have only done a good job of one thing. Keeping us behind the 8-ball. We're never ahead of the curve. Never innovative. Never leader of the pack.

At the county, we have no idea what the plan is after all these job cuts. Nobody can tell me what positives we plan on bringing about in the midst of this troublesome time. Nobody knows what's next. How do we do the work with less people? What will we be asking from employees, going forward? How will we keep them happy? How will we provide service? How will service improve? How will we innovate? How will we retain quality employees? How will we attract needed employees? What responsibilities will the customer be asked to increase? What will we stop doing harder and do smarter? How will our leaders lead? What will the employees get for their work? How will we be rewarded? When do things improve? What happens when they do improve? What if things don't improve? When will we use technology to our advantage? When will we start doing business like a business?

You don't matter anymore

I watched a bit of The O'Reilly Factor today. Only to hear from Mr. O'Reilly and his fans, how they are feeling. The overwhelming sentiment was that Mr. O'Reilly and his viewers are fearful. He used the word, fear, multiple times during my brief viewing. Asking his guest, Karl Rove, if he was scared of President-elect Barack Obama. O'Reilly expressed that listeners to his radio show were fearful of an Obama presidency.

Fear, Mr. O'Reilly? Really?

You're fearful, when the new majority is exuberant, excited, encouraged, hopeful, thankful, supportive and unbelievably joyous!

Mr. O'Reilly how does fear feel to you?

Bill, welcome to the world of the minority. Welcome to a place where the majority doesn't think you matter. A majority rule that has not adequately provided health care to all. A majority rule that has done a horrible job of educating the youth. A majority who has dropped the ball on the economy, the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan, energy independence and healthcare. A majority that pays all of it's non-white males a lesser wage for the same work. A majority that sat back and watched as Katrina destroyed the lives of so many.

The list of the ill's the old majority is responsible for is without end. So, I will not mention any other.

Mr. O'Reilly, if you are scared. Welcome to the feeling that all minorities have felt, while people who share your ideas have controlled this country.

Your time is over. Your ideas don't rule anymore.

Lets rock

Barack Obama was elected President of the USA. I don't know if I fully understand what that sentence even means right now. A Black Man, has been elected to the highest position in the world. I never thought I would see the day. I'm overwhelmed with joy and inspiration. This is hard to digest....
As a Black Man, watching another Black Man, I've witnessed an incredible event. I was able to watch with my family and share in the joys of us all. From Ian and Erin, to Bridget's mother and grandmother.

I'm so excited....and sleepy I can't focus. And I've had a few beers while waiting and celebrating....

Crazy lady

So, some chick just rolls up to my neighbors house and starts smashing the shit out of his truck. Hitting it with a bat or 2x4 or something. He comes out, they argue a bit, she leaves, he goes back in the house. She comes back, hits the car a few more times, leaves again. She comes back, leaves. Comes back one more time and takes a couple more swings at the truck, but my neighbor didn't come back out? WTF?????

Upside down

Things done changed. It's 2008 and we've found ourselves behind. Going backwards, in the totally wrong direction. War is an issue. Energy is an issue. Employment is an issue. Housing is an issue. Money is an issue. The conservative, conventional ideas that has, for the most part, guided us to this point. Those conservative, conventional ideas have to be shelved, in place of some new, innovative, maybe not so conservative ones.
The country was supposed to be left to me in a better place than how it was inherited by past generations. It's a rule that we leave things better than we found them. It's just what your parents teach you at a very early age.
Did my elders give a shit about how they left the country for me? What happened in the 60's, 70's, 80's, 90's that may have contributed to our current position? Did anyone during these times think about what my America might look like? I know that they did, it's just impossible to forecast what changes that your generation is responsible for will have an impact on future generations.
Unfortunately, we don't have a crystal ball to see into the future. It would make things easier(I guess), but we'll have to do without it.

Lay-offs have been proposed at work. We don't know who or when is going to be lay ed off, but we know it's coming. This is an uncomfortable place to be. Not something I want to stick around to be a part off. Working on my resume. Trying to find something more suitable for me. More stable(if that's even an option), less stressful....we'll see what happens.

Funny thing about these crazy times is that we have a Black man on the verge of becoming the next President of the United States. Crazy. Who would have thought? Certainly not me. Like Chris Rock said, 'Bush fucked up so bad, he made it hard for white men to run for President'....I am hopeful the Sen. Obama wins the election and am ready and willing to help him become the best President ever! We, as a country, must support him and allow the positive, innovative, cooperative ideas shine through and move us forward. In a decent, respectable way.

4:45

I work from 8-4:45. Generally can't wait until 4:45. I pray for 4:45. Today was no different, however something did dawn on me....my attitude is shit when I get off work. My whole world view has a negative spin on it. I exit work wondering how the hell I'm going to maneuver myself into doing something else with my life. Wondering what the fuck our administration is doing. Wondering how the hell we ended up in such an adverse situation. I leave work bitter. Upset that things aren't being done. That decisions are being made that make no sense. That there is no accountability. Upset that there is no light at the end of the tunnel.
We're being asked to do more with less, like I'm sure many other places are. The difference, I hope, is that other places of employment has management that has a clue about what is going on.

Excuse me miss

....but you is a BITCH! And I don't apologize. I just witnessed you yell at your child for no reason. I watched you look an absolute mess. I witnessed your friend also look a mess, and yell at her child for no reason, via cellphone. I witnessed you allow your child...no instruct your child to piss in the parking lot of a grocery store. Not your grocery store. A grocery store you just gave your money to. So, you give money to this business & also piss on it? And when the store begins to look like you've been pissing on it, your stank ass complains.
Yeah, I've pissed outside before. Behind some bushes, behind a building...when it was fucking necessary! And my momma certainly didn't instruct me to do so, and if she did she also instructed me that doing that shit was totally unacceptable. Anyway....

Why do you think this behavior is okay? Wait, don't answer. Let me ask you in a different way.

Hey BITCH, what the fuck is yo stupid ass doing? You dumb BITCH, you don't let this little boy piss outside in the grocery store parking lot & you don't yell & cuss at him. He is a child. You need to teach him to be better than you. To do better than you. And because of you he should be given an opportunity to be better. But yo stupid ass don't understand. Don't be mad at your son. He ain't mad at you, and he has every right to be! He should be pissed at you....wait he might grow up and be pissed, and exhibit some fucked up behavior in his relationships with other women. BITCH you stupid!