When I was home for my class reunion, I found an old friend. A really good friend, that I talked to just about everyday in High School. We somehow lost touch after High School, but to see her and talk to her again was so comfortable and natural. More comfortable than anyone else I ran into all weekend. Maybe because we talked so much, and I felt like she knew..me. Our encounter during the reunion was brief, but we exchanged email addresses and phone numbers. We've been talking ever since. She's so much the same, but also very different. Hell, she's a woman now. With each conversation we have I remember why I felt such comfort with her. It's not something I can put my finger on, but she is truly a friend. Not only is she a friend, but she's HOT! Sexy as hell...goodness. And recently our talks have turned into some playful flirting. It's fun, harmless...good to know that someone would really want you. Good to know that someone else thinks you're an okay person.
She's great though, and I hope that I never lose contact with her again, and I hope that one day I can get over my crush and have her meet my wife so that she can truly be a part of my family. We'll see about all that...having too much fun flirting right now!
21.11.07
Absence does what?
So, I make it back home from TN in one piece. I'm thinking that if Joy is feeling okay, I'll be getting some tail...she wasn't feeling okay. No problem, I understand. Maybe the next day...tuesday comes and goes with na...da...
We talk. Not about the fact that I'd expected to have sex with my wife upon my return home from a trip where I was gone 4 days, but about the fact that we wanted to make changes to make each other happy. Some of the things we wanted/needed from one another. After the communication back and forth all day, I was anticipating that we would put what we'd been talking about into action...nunca! Honestly, I'm lost. I don't understand one single thing that's going on. I ask for sex more often, then don't get any? She says that she wants to make me happy and be the cause of my happiness not the reason for me being unsatisfied, then nothing! What the fuck is she waiting on? Damn, I wish I knew so I could move that shit along.
We've got a 4 day weekend, so we'll see what happens during this time...
During one of the conversations that I had, I mentioned to her that I didn't want to have to go elsewhere to find what I need and she shook her head like she understood. But I don't really think that she does. And I don't know what to do to let her know...cause it's truely a possibility. I'm a man, and I need things. If the shoe were on the other foot and I wasn't doing what I needed to I'd expect her to try and find it elsewhere. Honestly, I think I would encourage it. I would hate to be the source of anything that caused her displeasure or discontent...so, I figure that it would be better that I know she was going elsewhere for a particular need that to know I was causing/or the cause of her pain...
What the hell is a man to do? Just sit on my hands????????????????
We talk. Not about the fact that I'd expected to have sex with my wife upon my return home from a trip where I was gone 4 days, but about the fact that we wanted to make changes to make each other happy. Some of the things we wanted/needed from one another. After the communication back and forth all day, I was anticipating that we would put what we'd been talking about into action...nunca! Honestly, I'm lost. I don't understand one single thing that's going on. I ask for sex more often, then don't get any? She says that she wants to make me happy and be the cause of my happiness not the reason for me being unsatisfied, then nothing! What the fuck is she waiting on? Damn, I wish I knew so I could move that shit along.
We've got a 4 day weekend, so we'll see what happens during this time...
During one of the conversations that I had, I mentioned to her that I didn't want to have to go elsewhere to find what I need and she shook her head like she understood. But I don't really think that she does. And I don't know what to do to let her know...cause it's truely a possibility. I'm a man, and I need things. If the shoe were on the other foot and I wasn't doing what I needed to I'd expect her to try and find it elsewhere. Honestly, I think I would encourage it. I would hate to be the source of anything that caused her displeasure or discontent...so, I figure that it would be better that I know she was going elsewhere for a particular need that to know I was causing/or the cause of her pain...
What the hell is a man to do? Just sit on my hands????????????????
TN
The road trip was excellent. We had a wonderful time. It was funny being with 3 other grown men for a couple of days. Haven't been around guys for consecutive days in a few years. I'd be lying if I said that I didn't expect some arguments, but surprisingly ever thing was cool. Lots of golf, liquor, and herb. Golf in the morning, until the late afternoon. Liquor and herb later in the evening.
Our accommodations weren't the best...we only had a one bedroom(essentially a one bedroom apartment) so we had to share beds. The one bedroom and a pull-out couch. We'll make sure to upgrade for next years trip..yeah, we want to make it an annual thing.
The golf was amazing. Even though my game is pretty bad, I had a good time playing. All of the little things that are necessary to play the game, make it very intriguing. I'm definitely going to continue to play and hopefully improve. I learned a few things from the fellas that I'm going to attempt to implement in my game and eventually find my own game. My main problems are keeping the damn ball straight...I can make contact, just not like it's meant to be done. Have to figure out why I keep hitting it to the right? Then I'll work on the power, then the short game...or something like that.
Our accommodations weren't the best...we only had a one bedroom(essentially a one bedroom apartment) so we had to share beds. The one bedroom and a pull-out couch. We'll make sure to upgrade for next years trip..yeah, we want to make it an annual thing.
The golf was amazing. Even though my game is pretty bad, I had a good time playing. All of the little things that are necessary to play the game, make it very intriguing. I'm definitely going to continue to play and hopefully improve. I learned a few things from the fellas that I'm going to attempt to implement in my game and eventually find my own game. My main problems are keeping the damn ball straight...I can make contact, just not like it's meant to be done. Have to figure out why I keep hitting it to the right? Then I'll work on the power, then the short game...or something like that.
5.11.07
Road trip
Taking a road trip with Michael, Butch, and Kevin next week. We are going to somewhere in TN to a time-share that Michael has. It's on like 5 golf courses. We'll be there Friday-Monday. 4 days of all the golf you can handle...Michael came up to my office today talking about...'are you ready'. Hell no, I'm not ready. My game needs some serious work. Like, I need to hit the driving range everyday before the trip, work. I not going to play golf and lose. I'm going to play to win. Got a lot of work to do, but I'm going to compete! Gotta get me a putter before we go.
Before today, I was thinking about driving down by myself. Michael, Butch, and Kevin were going to ride together. My train of thought was that I wanted to have my own vehicle in case I wanted to leave sooner, if Joy needed me to come home, or if I just needed to get away from 3 other grown ass men.
I decided to ride. Gas is too damn expensive and the Tahoe drinks that shit. Once I decide that I'm going to ride, I get hit with...why don't we take the Tahoe. No big deal, shit I was going to drive it myself anyway. It's got more room than the MDX, so lets roll. Wish I had the CD player fixed, but I'm rocking the satellite radio and the ipod so I'm cool. Just got some work done last week, so it should be cool on the road, especially when I get the new tires.
I'm looking forward to the entire trip. The drive down, the golf, the time after golf...just hanging out. I've never been out of town with my brother while we've been grown. Not w/o his kids and wife. Should be interesting. I've got a feeling I'll be the one with the most sense. They all got kids...shit is going to be comedy.
Peace.
Before today, I was thinking about driving down by myself. Michael, Butch, and Kevin were going to ride together. My train of thought was that I wanted to have my own vehicle in case I wanted to leave sooner, if Joy needed me to come home, or if I just needed to get away from 3 other grown ass men.
I decided to ride. Gas is too damn expensive and the Tahoe drinks that shit. Once I decide that I'm going to ride, I get hit with...why don't we take the Tahoe. No big deal, shit I was going to drive it myself anyway. It's got more room than the MDX, so lets roll. Wish I had the CD player fixed, but I'm rocking the satellite radio and the ipod so I'm cool. Just got some work done last week, so it should be cool on the road, especially when I get the new tires.
I'm looking forward to the entire trip. The drive down, the golf, the time after golf...just hanging out. I've never been out of town with my brother while we've been grown. Not w/o his kids and wife. Should be interesting. I've got a feeling I'll be the one with the most sense. They all got kids...shit is going to be comedy.
Peace.
Risky business
I went to Dayton this weekend to hook up with some friends and see if I could spark a discussion about possibly starting a business, or coming up with a product idea. We met at Mongolian BBQ out in Kettering or Beavercreek or some shit. Craige had me taking the street, so I ain't know where the hell I was.
We sit down, eat good, and actually begin a dialogue. Cats really been thinking about trying to get into something and make some money. Several different good ideas, things that we may seriously be able to achieve with some hard work, commitment, responsibility, and some luck. Joy asked who the leader was...I was reluctant to say me, but I guess I am. And if I am then I need to put in the effort myself that I want to see out of everyone else. It's got to be me who's working the hardest. We'll see what happens. NOBODY outside of the people I had the meeting with, and a few other friends who didn't make it, believes this group of guys can pull a business off. Don't you just love the underdog!
We sit down, eat good, and actually begin a dialogue. Cats really been thinking about trying to get into something and make some money. Several different good ideas, things that we may seriously be able to achieve with some hard work, commitment, responsibility, and some luck. Joy asked who the leader was...I was reluctant to say me, but I guess I am. And if I am then I need to put in the effort myself that I want to see out of everyone else. It's got to be me who's working the hardest. We'll see what happens. NOBODY outside of the people I had the meeting with, and a few other friends who didn't make it, believes this group of guys can pull a business off. Don't you just love the underdog!
31.10.07
Good day coming?
Tomorrow has the potential to be a good day for us, for Joy. She's got a presentation that she's been working on and also a meeting with one of the directors. In the past couple weeks she's been getting hints thrown her way the something good was about to happen. People asking her has she heard about this or that. It's got her wondering what the hell people are talking about. No real mention of anything from her direct supervisor, so what could it really be...right? Or it could be bigger than that, which is why she's meeting with one of the directors. We'll see in a couple hours...
I'm so proud of her. She's such an inspiration. Truly a success in every since of the word. She's without a doubt the better half...
My on the other hand, I'm in the process of embarking in a tremendous experiment. I'm trying to get some of my best friends together to talk business! Might not sound too bad, but these guys aren't exactly business men. Including myself. However, I feel like if we all get on the same page with a common goal we can make shit happen. It won't happen overnight, but if we work and everyone put in the effort...anything can happen. ANYTHING.
Like I told my wife, expect the worst and hope for the best! Even if these current situations don't pan out for us at least we know that we are moving in the right direction. Gotta just stay committed to what it is we want to do, what it is that we want to accomplish. I don't give a shit about an accolades. Just give me a comfortable life, and some shit to leave my kids, kids, kids. Let that be my legacy. Something people can actually touch and feel....benefit from in a direct way. I want to create something, something bigger than myself. I'm enlisting my friends in this initial attempt because I think that they are interested in some of those same goals, and it would be fun to work with them. When I was a kid, and even now, I never wanted to have something significant as a symbol of success that I couldn't share with someone. Much more comfortable with a team. If I'm successful, I want everyone around me to be successful. I want to roll through Dayton with a fleet of black Range Rovers. Me and all my homies. Remember, ANYTHING can happen...impossible is nothing.
Peace
I'm so proud of her. She's such an inspiration. Truly a success in every since of the word. She's without a doubt the better half...
My on the other hand, I'm in the process of embarking in a tremendous experiment. I'm trying to get some of my best friends together to talk business! Might not sound too bad, but these guys aren't exactly business men. Including myself. However, I feel like if we all get on the same page with a common goal we can make shit happen. It won't happen overnight, but if we work and everyone put in the effort...anything can happen. ANYTHING.
Like I told my wife, expect the worst and hope for the best! Even if these current situations don't pan out for us at least we know that we are moving in the right direction. Gotta just stay committed to what it is we want to do, what it is that we want to accomplish. I don't give a shit about an accolades. Just give me a comfortable life, and some shit to leave my kids, kids, kids. Let that be my legacy. Something people can actually touch and feel....benefit from in a direct way. I want to create something, something bigger than myself. I'm enlisting my friends in this initial attempt because I think that they are interested in some of those same goals, and it would be fun to work with them. When I was a kid, and even now, I never wanted to have something significant as a symbol of success that I couldn't share with someone. Much more comfortable with a team. If I'm successful, I want everyone around me to be successful. I want to roll through Dayton with a fleet of black Range Rovers. Me and all my homies. Remember, ANYTHING can happen...impossible is nothing.
Peace
14.10.07
Reunion
Class of 97, reunite. This weekend was my 10 year high school reunion. We had the homecoming football game, a tour of the new high school, and a party. Joy and I missed the football game, but were able to make it to the rest of the events. I had an great time. It was such a good feeling to see all the familiar faces. People I grew up with...that I went to school with for 6 years(junior high and high school) It's fascinating how people have changed...physically and mentally. Folks were a little chunkier. Some smaller. Mostly all the women with more tits and ass...most of the dudes had picked up weight, so I didn't feel so bad.
Everyone seemed to be doing good, with was delightful to hear. Folks had moved away...Houston, ATL, Boston, Chicago, Japan, Iraq, D.C., We done good.
Not everyone I thought would show up did, but it was an impressive turn out. Pretty much the core group of people when we were in high school were the people who attended. Hopefully I will do a better job of keeping in touch with people. I realized that I missed talking to some of them.
Also got to hook up with lil cuz, B. He just moved into a house out in Kettering. Nice little house. Basement, second floor. Just like the house he grew up in except for the second floor. His wife is expecting again. The twins are 3 and adorable. I hadn't seen them in a long time...they are just as friendly and polite as you'd expect. He's really a fascinating person. His ability to stay the same person despite the things that he's gone thru(some chosen). We've been close since I can remember, so maybe we just have this understanding of each other...a note so common bond. Hard to explain.
Got him hooked up to the PS3 online, so now we can play. So, let me do that before I retire for the night.
Peace
Everyone seemed to be doing good, with was delightful to hear. Folks had moved away...Houston, ATL, Boston, Chicago, Japan, Iraq, D.C., We done good.
Not everyone I thought would show up did, but it was an impressive turn out. Pretty much the core group of people when we were in high school were the people who attended. Hopefully I will do a better job of keeping in touch with people. I realized that I missed talking to some of them.
Also got to hook up with lil cuz, B. He just moved into a house out in Kettering. Nice little house. Basement, second floor. Just like the house he grew up in except for the second floor. His wife is expecting again. The twins are 3 and adorable. I hadn't seen them in a long time...they are just as friendly and polite as you'd expect. He's really a fascinating person. His ability to stay the same person despite the things that he's gone thru(some chosen). We've been close since I can remember, so maybe we just have this understanding of each other...a note so common bond. Hard to explain.
Got him hooked up to the PS3 online, so now we can play. So, let me do that before I retire for the night.
Peace
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